Hodgepodge.

Today I feel a rush of emotions rein over me. It really changes with the second to how I am feeling. I am usually not like this. I am usually pretty even tempered, but not today. Today, I feel vulnerable. I feel scared. Wrapped up in all this uncertainty is one steady rock, Matt. He hasn’t been officially mentioned on this blog before so here it goes: Matt is the new man in my life. Although we have known each other for a few years we recently started dating. Being around him has made my life so happy, but I am also so nervous. I trust him 100%, and he does me BUT in any new relationship I worry. I haven’t been in one for years and this is all new to me. I just think this is going to be something special and I don’t want to mess it up.

Matt makes me happy, but what doesn’t make me happy is money. Well, it does, but the lack of it sucks. I just can’t seem to catch up and it is really wearing me down. I didn’t think at 25 (holding on for one more day!) I would still be playing this no money game. When does it end? Can it soon? Please…I will be nice!

Did I mention that I am holding onto 25 for one more day? Yes, it would seem like tomorrow is my 26th birthday. Not a year I am really looking forward to, but Matt is taking me to a concert so that should be fun! Hopefully it will help lift my spirits because I don’t want to be in this funk much longer.

I guess this post has ended up being a hodgepodge of things. I should probably stop by this place more. Don't make fun of me in that picture. I have had a few beers but it is a rare picture with BOTH of us. :)